Things i have been thinking of

Things i have been thinking of,
learning to be an artist?
Learning to be a lover?

Living for purpose?
It's all of a sudden that i can't remember
the last time i was alone. A time when i was asking
myself questions to figure out a purpose for life, for
my life. Existence? Purpose? i can't remember those
times like i used to as clearly as i did. But all the more
reasons i have much to say. How you came in my life,
how i spoke about needing someone, how i wanted
to know what love really means. Times when i shook off
all the pain, remembering one purpose that kept me going.
I need not do that to my body no more, to absorb fear, to
live knowing death. Fear nothing, be afraid of everything.
I have never said i knew as much, but i spoke like i knew how
we are(people), generally. Creating voices, creating expressions.
So be it that we are who we are, but do i give myself a chance,
praying works, but how long can we pray and hold on, i know
that there were occasions that i couldn't.

But i can now say all has changed. If anyone who has read what i
wrote above have wasted their time, because none of that really matters
now, only you. Artist or nothing.