Why even ask myself

Why is it that every time something perfect happens i fall afraid and just try to hurt myself and hurt the people that care so much about me.

WHY! WHY! WHY!!!!!....stop doing this to yourself now!! Please!!!




I think it's because i love you so so so damn much that i never been so so so damn damn sure about a feeling in my life
that i am afraid to wake up one day losing every thing.........
I am just stupid to be thinking all this shit! FUCK!! and hurting you more than i know.
i'm so sorry so sorry so sorry.................